Welcome to an Introvert's Head

My name is Angela and I’m an introvert.  Introverts sometimes get a bad reputation in life or are misunderstood so here are some facts to know about me….

I don’t like big crowds…But that doesn’t mean I’m a snob or stuck-up…It means that I prefer and enjoy quiet moments where I can have meaningful conversations with friends and hear my own thoughts.  

I don’t have a lot of friends…But that doesn’t mean I hate people…It means that I prefer quality over quantity and I have no patience for fake people and petty conversations. (I have low patience levels so I find many people annoying.)

I have moments where I tend to get quiet and go inside my head blocking out the world…But that doesn’t mean I’m mad…It mean I need time to myself to think and process.  A million different, random thoughts go through my head at any given moment and it can be a lot to keep up with.  If I don’t take time to assemble them into some sort of order I won’t be able to function.

I don’t always contribute to conversations…But that doesn’t mean I have nothing to say.  Like I said, I have a lot of thoughts going through my head at any moment…I choose to not share most of my thoughts for various reasons.  Because they are not relevant to the conversation….Or because nothing I say will make a difference in that person’s mind or life.  Because my thoughts are private and personal and hard for me to share….or because I other people won’t understand my thought process and look at me like I’m crazy.  Or because I just enjoy observing people, watching some of them make a fool of themselves or just watching the different quirks each person has, which I then save for future observations.

I don’t share a lot about my personal life (in real life)…But that doesn’t mean I don’t have struggles or problems…It means that I prefer to not burden others with my troubles.  We all have our struggles and while I am happy to help friends and most family with there’s I prefer not to bother others with mine.  

I decline a lot of invitations from friends to hang out…But that doesn’t mean that I want you to stop inviting me….It means I find being around people for long periods draining….And I need time to myself to recharge and get back to a better place.

Most importantly….

You don’t need to fix me….

I’m not broken…..

I just function differently than you do….

And there is nothing wrong with that…or me! 

Being misunderstood can be quite frustrating.  So can people in general, I find.  I sometimes feel the need to get the millions of thoughts out of my head before I drown in them.  One would thinking talking would be the answer but talking can be difficult, especially if you're an introvert.  Putting thoughts into words, more times than not, can turn into an unintelligible jumble of mixed up words that will never communicate what you are trying to say.  I am much more expressive and intelligent sounding behind a keyboard.  

So this blog is my chance to unload some of the thoughts that race through my mind, some of them random thoughts that pop in there and some inspired by friends, family, or the world at large.  This is my therapy (because real therapy is expensive and would be a waste of time for somebody who has trouble opening up to random people).  

Feel free to read through my blog entries to see some of the millions of things that go through my head.  I can be slow to update sometimes because it can be difficult to put my thoughts into words, and sometimes life just gets in the way, but I do my best to update a few times a month, at least! 

Welcome to an introvert’s head!